different lives. a different world.

somehow it feels very strange to see your friends having a life completely different to yours, a life not so simply consist of studying and the normal routines. Going to shisha bars, drinking rum, vodka, cocktails, going to clubs, they all seem so foreign, far away, and in one word 'impossible' for me to relate to, yet they were some of my close friends. and not only that, it seems these things are completely normal for all teenagers. I remember once at a party at my friend's host family in germany, everyone were just drinking tequila, others smoking shisha, and of course I didn't join in, but it  just felt strange being the one sitting there and looking on..

Every now and then, seeing my friends in this completely different world to mine, I just feel...not that I want to become like them, but I'm just amazed how different our lives can be..,,

to be honest actually, there is maybe 1/100000 of me that want to join them in their world. Perhaps Im just so tired of this whole studying hard, having to get good marks, a brilliant career, which I and other people are aiming for. Can't we for a moment have a taste of living without all these expectations...

I hope this is only a temporary feeling....Already after writing this, I'm feeling convinced again of the right-ness of the path we've chosen :) I think I was just feeling a bit imbalanced before, after seeing what my old friends are up to...let's blame social media.