the bitter disappointment...

the shower is a good place to let your feelings out. I realised.
I hate myself. I hate when ppl comfort you and though you know what they say is not true, you want to believe in it so much. it's almost like finding an excuse for your failure.

I hate the feeling of self-blame. the knowledge that it's all because of you yourself. but I don't know why. I really truly absolutely don't know what happened and why things turned out how they are. The self confidence is gone.

just because i don't hang it on my face doesn't mean that I do not feel like that. you just have to say it out.

the sadness~This song is making me feel sadder. nothing to do with the drama or the lyrics. but just listening to this song repeating non stop just depresses me even though it's so pretty



having a hobby is a good thing. whether it's piano or watching dramas. it doesn't matter what you do. as long as it helps you forget everything.that's what I am going to do.

maybe it's just a way of escape. but you never know, maybe afterwards you are able to find the strength to go on again.

people say you can only live life once. that means living trying your best at everything. "Shoot for the moon and even if you miss you will land among the stars."

wait till I come back from holiday at end of year. start of next year. yes. I promise to start fresh. no more dramas. can't be lazy anymore. No pain no gain. There is only one way to reach your goal in life. That's working hard.